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[06 Apr 2008|07:03pm] |
Dear Christopher Garnett,
I miss you, love you, and I'm sorry I'm a horrible friend.
Sincerely,
Me
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[27 Feb 2008|02:06pm] |
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I am forever trying to escape this place with little vacations. Forever making stupid decisions. Forever being deceived due to my overwhelming optimism. Forever learning from only 75% of my mistakes.
Instead of taking little trips out of here, I've finally made the first move in making a huge step forward with my life. At last, I'm configuring my future education situation and I couldn't be happier. My tax returns come back in less than a week, and I'm going to purchase my OWN car. Pay my OWN bills. Take responsibility for my OWN decisions. For the first time in forever, my parents are beginning to get that glint of hope and pride in their eyes again. I hope the same can be said about me as well.
Side note: I need a How To... guide on not attracting people who are dying to dick me over. Next time anyone sees a flashing neon sign over my forehead, feel free to turn it off.
Harvey Milk and Giant in less than two weeks.
Explosions In The Sky in April.
Radiohead in May.
Learning to love life more every day.
Time to take Nils out for a ride...be courageous.
::edit::
It was so windy I got blown over while on the road with Nils. Hurrah!
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[12 Feb 2008|01:30am] |
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 Dear, I forgot the part where the rest of the world mattered, and it's been beautiful. -Other ps: Does this even exist in real life happenstance...  I didn't think so. |
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| In case no one knew |
[06 Jan 2008|01:48pm] |
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I'm a bona fide mc and the Jags and suck it.    That's all for now. 7 days left. |
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[24 Dec 2007|10:19pm] |
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3 B's...
Bangs
Bike
...and Boy
Life hasn't been this good in a VERY long time.
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[28 Nov 2007|12:50pm] |
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mogwai - take me somewhere nice |
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 As of the past three months, I've been spending more time not spending time with others. I consume myself with work, come home exhausted from the early wake, and utilize the remainder of the day winding down. All this time alone enables me to constantly evaluate who I am, where I am figuratively, and how to get where I want to go. I miss adventures. I miss my secret place on the moon hidden away by the trees and steep ledges. I can assuredly say, I've kissed every ounce of apathy I had goodbye, and I'm back to living life with my head held high in the clouds...a dreamer's life.
Don't look at it as though I'm merely just a dreamer, but that this waking life is of what I dream.
He has brought back the feeling and adventure into my life. |
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[09 Nov 2007|10:50am] |
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I'm in absolute adoration of this chilly weather. Figuratively speaking, I feel as though this winter wont be as cold as my last for some reason. Things have finally come full circle and I've been dawned with a new perspective toward everything. This is the closest to feeling "whole" that I have reached in quite some time. I survived the best and worst two years of my life, and it's uplifting to know that I can look back on those times and sincerely say that if it weren't for the lowest of the low and highest of the high, I wouldn't be on the right track to becoming the person I eventually hope to be.
We talked for so long, I forgot that you weren't really there. The air was cold, the bed was large. I close my eyes when we talk to forget where I physically am.
I heard the utmost beautiful pieces of music yesterday. It's exhausting in the best way...I can't remember the last time a song had me enthralled so much to the point of exhaustion; too passionate and uplifting to describe...so in that way, I just kind of described it?
The countdown is on, and it's about a week left.
I want to be here  and here...  but for now I'm right here...  and I'm okay with that. |
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[29 Oct 2007|07:12pm] |
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After dealing with faulty tire rods, the Bumaggedon, shady people, vengeful old significant others on powertrips, not getting to see some loved ones in Charlotte, and driving 90 mph at night alone in a car with a broken window and no speakers...I am happy to be back in black and at home. My hair is the longest it's been since middle school and it's new and strange to me.
On the plus, I did get to go to Scarowinds on Saturday and see Giant and Btbam on Sunday. While I don't enjoy Columbia in the slightest, I always have the best of run-ins there. Playing on the river and having a much needed walk and talk was just what the doc ordered. I'm slightly confused about a few things, but I will get over it like I always do.
Dibs on take two of fall/winter singledom aaaaand on spending over $50 on random special effects gore makeup kits and multiple faux moustaches. SO EXCITED!
I miss Leigh and Seib. I hope Chris ends up being able to come down south for a visit soon...I'm keeping my fingers crossed.
Oh, and:  Be on the lookout for my new album "Hethklok: Vol 1" |
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..saw Baroness again tonight. I feel complete again, as I do every time I see them. We rode bikes in the afternoon, ate yummy food, rode bikes some more, sat in the park and talked about whatever, and rode bikes to Baroness. What a good day...I feel like I really needed today to happen. Hearing the words, "It's good to have you hanging out with us again. It's been forever," from more than one person today was refreshing. It reminded me what the words "good company" truly mean...and now I finally have people to help me build my own bike once I get my second paycheck from work.
I got a present for Chris today and I'm going to try to mail it on Thursday. It's rewarding being able to do things for people who deserve it.
I'll leave the stories about how I almost got in a 3 car pile up and got ditched twice out of this.
Just know that driving a vehicle with an airhorn rules.
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[01 Oct 2007|12:32am] |
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George Bush collage comprised of pornographic images by Jonathan Yeo
Receiving compliments from those who never give them means so much. I miss so many of my friends...everyone is moving far from here. Just another reminder of my shortcomings, but another motivational tool to do well and strive hard to accomplish my goals. I even miss some of my friends with whom I still spend time. Everything is different. I wish some of them would hang out like they used to. Not that they dont hang out, because most of them are social all the time...but the time spent together isnt the same any more. Where are the adventures? Where is the sobriety? Where are the hangouts where we have a blast doing absolutely nothing at all? I miss so many things.
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[09 Sep 2007|01:25pm] |
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I think this is one of the sweetest things.  Today is a beautiful day...in the quaint sort of way. I've realized maybe I should cut others more slack. Standards are not being lowered at all, mind you, but you don't really give any seed the chance to grow into something beautiful when you just expect the whole bouquet to arrive perfectly presented at your doorstep. Take that as you like. I guess I just realized that whoever it is I meet...well...they weren't the ones who jaded me so they shouldn't be treated like that is so. Today is a good day for forgiveness.
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 Well I, at least, think it's funny.
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cavity - supercollider |
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Pretty much sums up how I feel about life right now.
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